Psalm 42:1

As the hart panteth after the water brooks,
panteth my soul after thee, O God.

We all long for something deep within, something to satisfy the void... We try to look for it in our careers, search for contentment in entertainment, sports, and romantic relationships... but all we could ever reach is momentary contentment. After sometime we long for something more, long for something that we have not yet achieved. We may have all the riches in the world, the best devices that money could buy, and could have traveled the entire world, but in the end, all that we could feel is nothing but an unfathomable thirst for something...

We ask ourselves why? ...

It is because we are not created to only contain these things. Man is a tripartite being consisting of the flesh, the soul, and spirit. The flesh which is the physical part of man is the outward part. The soul consisting of the mind, emotion, and will is a deeper part and affects all our decisions and actions. Lastly, the spirit which is the deepest part of man is designed to contain God.

1 Thessalonians 5:23
And the God of peace Himself sanctify you wholly, and may your spirit and soul and body be preserved complete, without blame, at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.

We may be able to satisfy our bodies by eating, drinking, and sleeping. We may satisfy our desires through sports, leisure, and attending to our emotions. But only by containing the Lord in our spirit that we will truly be satisfied!

Like a glove designed to contain the hand, we, in our spirit, is designed to contain God.

Just as i am...

Just as i am looking at you right at this very moment, flashes of never ending waves had been signaled back to the depths of my being. I can't help to stare, as you stand there with a radiating aura that transmits something unfathomable.

I was in awe, in a trance-like figure, frozen and unmoving, at the moment you transfixed your gaze on me. I would like to stay at that moment. But i know that it was nothing real, nothing that would ever come true.

I had been dreaming and I know, maybe sometime right at this very moment, I would wake up to the reality that I will not be able to touch you, or stand beside you, no matter how I struggle to keep up with your pace.

It has already been decided. Fate had not allowed it to happen in my favor, for my sake... All I could do now is to accept it, and move on.

That's all that is to it. But wait... can I at least know your name? Or perhaps be able to say hello.

Perhaps not even that could happen. For all that is allowed is some distant gaze...

a love poem...

One does not question why,
Or how, or when...
For love needs no reason
Its existence is love.
Its being is love.
Love exists because one feels.
It needs no answer.
Love waits and sits down in the corner.
It does not shed a tear
And feels no regret for loving.
Love is never selfish.
For it wills to give.
But when love leaves,
Wounds are etched.
Scars are made.
And hearts are broken.

--neiloy--

To the Stars

Originally titled as Ode to the Stars

Tonight,the stars are crying.
Oh stars, why do you weep?
Does your weeping bury your sorrow?
Or is every flicker, a tear of your joy?
Why do you keep your distance?
Why haunt me
With such recluse.

Touch seems meaningless to you.
Yet the horizon awaits your caress.
Why don't you lie still on its bed?
Are you afraid?
That the sea would drown your light.
Or are you just too proud
To step down from your pedestal.

Oh beloved stars, grace me with your comfort.
Be a legion to the moon in silent solitude.
Your light is of bitter sweet amber,
Nearly fading out but constantly burns.
But tonight, beloved, you are all crying.
Are you weeping for my sake?
Or wailing for Aurora's nearness.

--neiloy--